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Pensées from Pascal

Berkeley, Friday, August 2, 2019 4:22 PM

Transcripts from Blaise Pascal’s Pensées:

“The heart has its reasons, which reason does not know. We feel it in a thousand things. I say that the heart naturally loves the Universal Being, and also itself naturally, according as it gives itself to them; and it hardens itself against one or the other as its will. You have rejected the one, and kept the other. Is it by reason that you love yourself?

It is the heart which experiences God, and not the reason. This, then, is faith: God felt by the heart, not by the reason.

Faith is a gift of God; do not believe that we said it was a gift of reasoning. Other religions do not say this of their faith. They only gave reasoning in order to arrive at it, and yet it does not bring them to it.

The knowledge of God is very far form the love of Him.

Heart, instinct, principles.” (Pascal, 1670, 277-281)


Pascal, B., 1670. Pensées, WF Trotter (trans.) in 1958, introduction by TS Eliot. The edition I read was from Dover, 2003.

Faith, Life, Life style, Love

Fight more

Berkeley, Saturday April 13, 2019 1:0 0 PM

For a long time I have fallen in the trap to be always thinking in the things that I need to do.

It produces some negative, rather than the excitement that brings the purpose of doing those things.

Taking few time off for sports, praying, arts watching/performing, analysis, keep me moving forward.

I also have to say that I have not closed my previous chapter. If there is something I might did wrong over the last months is bringing some negative and pressure, by focusing too much on what I have to do, rather on the purpose.

I continue working on the way of doing my work effectively, but I do not hold back in the purpose of my work, and on the purpose of the great news that decided to propose to Jian on April 3.

Unfortunately, my message seems that went across as fulfillment of personal goals and fulfillment of just commitments. However, looking back, I have been fighting to keep advancing with what I really felt.

Life, Love

The yes that became no in the name of love

Berkeley, Thursday, April 4, 2019 5:05 PM

7 months of relationship, lasted 7 hours of engagement.

Blame on me, if I did not give everything.

I know you gave everything from you as well.

In analogy, many look like good students until the exam comes, at least that sometimes is my case, or sometimes politicians win elections full of promises.

The time to fulfill commitments came. Your happiness of the night, were drow in the morning with external consulting.

The happiness became sadness in terms of love and the future.

The problem. I was not born in your same country, and I was born ten years ahead of you.

Is that a problem for me? No.

Is that a problem for you? You said no.

But both of us lost.

Life, Love


Berkeley, Thursday, April 4, 2019 4:35 PM

I have been in a rush, and that made make many mistakes. Is it sustainable to live on a trial-and-error process?

The problem is when I affect others. I used Jian’s time from around 10:45 PM yesterday to today’s 11 AM. 12 hours, subtracting about 7:30 hours of sleep, end up in 4 to 5 hours of her working time, for which she had a deadline at 3:30 PM.

The topic was very important. Our life path. Making effective this scenario in the wrong time with the inadequate ring. Being impulsive, while helps to do some things, also lead to make mistakes.

This post is not about executing promises made in prior conversations with Jian, which was needed to do.

Thought, I am often analytical and plan. I might be just did not follow my intuition when buying the ring.

Regarding the timing of the proposition question, we had a small fight before on that night, which could have gone in other directions. Jian was anxious for her deadline. Her emotions were on edges. On my side, I had to kept my surprise plan, for which I was feeling extremely bad for the ring I chose, which was not cheap at all by the way.

In the level of stress that Jian was, I put an extra pressure on her, to execute, what we have committed for.

The yes lasted 8 hours of sleep.

What is my role, if I could not waited to weekend at least? Was I thinking on myself?

In prior times, Jian asked me things went I was busy or we either fought. In any case, it is my role to preach with example, and to contain the impulsions?

Often, things with impulsions are more meaningful, unfortunately it would have affected her performance in one essay.

I do not regret bringing up the question, as a clarification or execution was needed. So far our relationship was in that way.

What surprised me is how dump and slow I was in the aftermath.

Did I tried everything? It looks like, and the decision, apparently goes beyond her own decision. Is there any part in our story that I missed?