Berkeley, Friday, April 25, 2025 8:07 PM

I understand that silence is chaotic but it is a good thing quite often.

So, how can I play a role of less of a fool.

Am I going to publish this?

It was to some extent a good day, completely outside of a comfort zone, if that actually exist for me. And that is one of the argument. I try several things, without much of a strategy.

I am writing separated things no, as I do other stuff.

I had an IPA Russian River, which I think it was great. I liked a lot.

But I can get somehow confused with other stuff.

Here an accounting of events, and hopefully an analysis to keep my brain and social skills more productive.

I have been going to bed around 2 am or more.

I woke up this morning at 8.15 am or so. Still I arrived 25 minutes late to my first meeting.

How to figure out what to do it is a bit complicated?

I attended to teaching workshop.

I prepared a CV later.

Then, I printed a poster.

I am going into details but not completely.

There was a career fair. I proposed an idea of creating a spreadsheet for it.

Someone volunteered on doing.

I stick with what I understood. Why was I going to do it?

That is not a good player.

A problem was that I talked with many people today.

But it felt that I helped a little.

One made sure I knew that.

I guess I need to find sincerity.

It has been always my goal.

There is not other choice that going full mode on things I have to produce.

One of the interviews was awful but in general all of them were good.

I will meet you at the point where you are was a beautiful sentence I learned yesterday.

I guest I need to push forward to get my licenses.

Stay engaged. It is a complicated world, but it is possible. And probably that is the way.

Things does not dissolve.

One meeting later was at least sincere.

Recalling Fall 2023 and Spring 2024 odd habits probably were one of my issues.

Somehow it is a bit clearer what is needed next. I understand, that while typing this it is also a public screen.

But a lot of good habits came just from typing. And I have taught interesting things to others, which I see they apply.

It is good to take risks. It is awful to not be conversational at times.

But I need to make decisions. Clear definitions, and move forward as a smart folk.

Commitment would be one of the words that I rather choice.

I hope I can stay focused and I cannot make that many mistakes. Or if I do, I can clarify myself to understand for the next time.

I am also fully hoping to be free, light from sentiments, which are not that good.

But why the brain strain at times?

Be careful with what you do.

One thing I did not wanted to corrected today. It is what it is, but if I corrected I could have created a bond.

Prejudices are bad.

Another one, I created a while ago, it seems I was not forgiven.

Another one I carry. I voiced a bit about it today. I need to free myself from an aspect like that which creates confusion.

Another one was desperation, which was sad and confusing. Later on I reached out my whole self.

Even in the conversation which I did not fully participated, but I fully listened.

I think that is the goal.

But since last summer at least, except from other cases, some people has been straightforward on asking what do I want? But things work like that?

Reflect more.

Studio is a beautiful space.