The need of defense

Berkeley, Thursday, December 19, 2024 3:58 PM

I have always thought that something is wrong if you need to defend something. The always is too extensive though.

Life happens by routines and processes.

Outcomes can be evident in society by daily progress, but it can also be beyond us.

Many times I thought of this nation as a free and transparent society. That is how it was presented.

However, I see how many people often do not say the true. Do not share what they did. Some folks might fight. I think the lack of truth obscures everything, and it is fustrating.

On my own errors, I see I often focus in what others are doing. And while I acknowledge my errors. I am not making much amendments. I do actually.

What else I can write about in this public screen now, while a colleage.

Few errors from now. I might keep writing errors from the past, probably no.

It was great to have a dinner with a colleague last evening.

But I might be facing reality.

There is a extreme loud fridge noise on the room where I am working.

I disconnected a colleague fridge, with his permission, but I think is wrong. And actually the sound is coming from another fridge.

Yesterday, I worked until around half hour past mid-night.

I did all my evening routines, which are great. I probably waisted an hour though. I did the reading etc. I likely fell asleep around 2.45 am. That is late. And I might be tried by this time of the semester.

I ended up waking up around 10.45 am.

I did some work at home. Filled out forms. Cooked three meals. Probably waisted a bit of time by screening news. There were some shocking news.

I arrived to campus around 3 PM. Why the need to justify.

Without realizing, and with embarrassing, I said that I was up at 10 am. Now reflecting, I realized I woke up at 10.45 am. Normal waking up time is earlier than 7 am.

I also believe that God is fair. And some situations are better to analyze them better.

I have complained years about situations in my place. But I have not being able to fix it and to find a good routine.

I also think that Fall 2023 seems it was fine. Spring 2024 was OK, it could have been better.

Summer 2024 was good. I did OK in Fall 2024, but ended up struggling, probably for not fulfilling a few things.