Waves

Berkeley, Wednesday March 22, 2023 5:27 PM

I really do not know if there is any fix to all my negative. I think that definitely yes, with hikes, honesty, transparency, good sleep, and socializing more.

I accept myself, I accept all the situations. I try to be extra aware of things. But probably some days are tough.

My close uncle passed away on Sunday morning. I still decided to show up to an important gratitude small social gathering on that night, of course in Berkeley.

I have had to navigate this week ignored gazes, ignored greetings, some bad communication on my side, some tense situations in few places, my choice to try to stay on target meaning of surviving the day, try to stay healthy productive.

The hardest thing was the time that was hard to sleep on my place, which I have fixed since then. But still have to push hard to fix the schedule, while the main goal is writing.

The silver line was all the people who has reached me out yesterday to try to become friends. A few who were distant actually.

In any case, as long as one is on control of the self, that is not enough, but good enough to stay on peace.

Do we want peace or conflict? Both are necessary, but peace and awareness probably make one stronger for the agitated times. Of course there are much more peaceful times in life than the ones of extremely high pressure. But without that pressure is hard to move.

It is so true that one has to be always ready on the daily basis to face the opportunities, because many good opportunities show up unpredictable, and probably show up only once. Better to ride on that wave if one wants, than always looking or waiting for the next wave, which will happen as well, but better to be ready. I do not know how long one can stay on the water, but much better to stay in the water than just watching the waves, meaning watching life pass by.